Today feels like a huge step in the right direction for some reason. I’m feeling positive, I feel strong again and back on the path of I CAN DO THIS. Just like everyone keeps telling me 💪🏼. I had an appointment at the Christie this morning. Usually I feel sick to my stomach going there, but today I sauntered in with a little bit of… confidence maybe. I know where to park now, I know what to expect when I walk in there and I know where I’m going. And that made a difference! I also have been extremely blessed in knowing who was going to look after me through my appointment which made me feel 100 times better. A gorgeous school friend who I’ve rekindled with throughout this journey works as a radiographer at the Christie! And she made sure she would be there at this appointment for me ❤️ HOW BLOODY AMAZING. 

So I got my radiotherapy mask fitted first and then had a CT scan to plan my treatment. From what I understand, it basically locates the rest of Nev and then they know exactly where to blast him with the radio! So first it’s like a warm piece of plastic that is shaped around your face – a little bit like a shit, NHS facial. It then firms up over ten minutes until it’s hard. Markings are placed on the mask so that the exact same place is targeted each time. And the mask is attached to the bed so that I cant move and mess up all their hard work. I make that sound much worse than it is – it’s honestly FINE! I was a brave girl! 

What I really love about this is that Sophie (the radiographer) and I are just in this room at the Christie planning for blasting the SHIT out of Nev. Who the hell knew we would ever be doing this one day when we were at school together! Who knew our paths would cross in this way in the future. CRAZY. But SO meant to be. The calmness she provided me with today is something I will literally never be able to thank her enough for. What a real life angel lady she is! 

Me and Oll celebrated on the way home with a Five Guys after my new and exciting accessory fitting. I’m a real life super hero now that I have the mask you know 🦸🏻‍♀️😂. We also found out I can do my radiotherapy in Macclesfield which is so much easier than travelling to Manchester everyday! So everything is falling into place for me starting this treatment at the end of the month. I feel so ready for this. Just like I did before surgery. I’m so happy to be back in this headspace. LETS GET IT!!!!!! 

Lots of love from Jen and Nev 🧠👁️⚡️🦸🏻‍♀️