This week has been my first week of radio every single day. Somehow it’s genuinely been alright! I’ve had one morning of feeling like crap – and I’m super tired today. But other than that I’ve felt good. I’ve still managed to work my life around the appointments and get everything done that I wanted and needed to do. So it’s a win. I also now get that Friday feeling. I’ve never had that before because I always worked shifts over 7 days, but now… Friday night feels special when I have no radio at the weekend! Not that I do anything crazy to celebrate. I mean last night I had a bath whilst playing sudoku (to keep the brain working) and eating dried mango so it’s not exactly wild these days 😂. But I like that Friday feeling! 

The waiting times this week at radio have been good too. Which makes a massive difference to how much it disrupts your day. There was only Monday when they were running an hour behind. So obviously Monday was the day we had my nephew – little Reggie with us ❤️. He was so good despite being stuck at the Christie for a few hours. He made loads of friends waving at everyone and throwing his toys around for other people to pick up 😂 He even treated me to a sleepy snuggle when we got home after I successfully transferred him from the car seat to my arms without waking him up – RESULT! I’d not done that for a few years but turns out I’ve still got the touch💃😂. 

I also managed a breakfast date with Oll this week before an appointment on a different day. I still can’t eat very well. I can’t even explain why – I think I just forget because I’m never hungry. My mind is too busy with other things. So at breakfast he ordered enough for about ten people in an attempt to feed me up. It was really lovely but obviously we didn’t finish it all. And I couldn’t eat for the rest of the day. Very strange – and my body needs to be strong for radio. So I’m working on that one 🙃. MUST. FUEL. MY. BODY. 

I also managed my works Xmas do this week, including a night over at Shrigley Hall and yet another spa in the morning! I’m always at a spa these days – that is absolutely NOT a complaint by the way. The Xmas do was really nice. It felt really normal just to be back with the people I used to spend every day with and to be eating the meal and up dancing like everyone else was. It was a sober one for me this year. I don’t even know if I am allowed a drink or not! But I’ve chosen for myself and my health to just steer clear until I feel comfortable with alcohol again. I did completely go off caffeine too but that’s back in my life again now 😂 so I’m sure alcohol will make its return at some point. But not for now. So I was weirdly apprehensive as this was my first ever time as an adult attending a function like that where I wouldn’t be drinking. Would it still be as fun? Would I still get up on the dance floor and pretend I knew how to dance? Would I feel like the odd one out? Well I worried about it for NO reason because I had a great time 😂 I still got up and pretended I could dance, and had loads of fun. I drunk Appetiser out of a Prosecco glass like a queen and it just felt normal – I just wasn’t drunk 😂 The night obviously was mixed with lots of brain tumour chat and everyone asking how I am which wouldn’t usually have happened but that’s just how it is these days. I have to accept that, that will be a lot of the conversation that I have with people. And that it only comes from a place of love. I’d just rather no one ever ask me how I am ever again 😂 which I know is stupid 🙃. One thing that I LOVED about the Xmas do was that we shared the function room with another works Xmas do. Last year it was the stepping hill midwives so it was similar vibes but this year – it was a gas company. So just imagine, about 50 wild midwives. All strong minded women who are letting their hair down. And 30 timid men who DO NOT know what the hell they’ve let themselves in for 😂. It was hilarious. They joined in after a while (or got forced to). But it was just so funny that we were polar opposites. The only thing that my soberness influenced was the time I left for the room. I left at a very reasonable 11pm and went straight to bed. After all, we had spa access at 7am! I loved waking up for the spa and feeling fine! No hangover for this version of myself thank youuuuuuu. The same cannot be said for two of the other girls we shared a room with though 😂. There’s nothing like being woken up at 2am to the sound of your friend vomming in the toilet and your other friend uncontrollably laughing. Then just a lot of hiccups. But we ALL made it to the spa in the morning – just late! I yet again was the annoying customer asking what the temperature of the pools were. But I can cope with that 😂. If you’re from round me, you’ve likely been to the shrigley spa. We imagined a beautiful sunrise from the outdoor pool. But we got a cloudy December morning with the sun rising in the opposite direction 😂. Still totally lovely though, until you go to buy a round of drinks for your friends and realise every drink is basically £1000 and you may need to go back to work early to pay for it 🙃

This weekend, my brother and his girlfriend are having the babies and Oll is out on a shoot so I have the house to myself today. Very odd. I woke up and felt an urge to go for a long walk at macc forest, and to attack the gym whilst I’ve got a radio free day 💪🏼. But then I fell asleep after making the kids some breakfast and realised I’m EXHAUSTED and can’t get to any of these places without a car anyway 😂 so I think my own bed is the only place I’ll be venturing to today. I might face the wind and rain for a run along the canal this afternoon but we shall see! If I need a day of rest, then my body will let me know. And if not, my mind will absolutely tell me to shift my butt out of the house. I get massive cabin fever so I’m sure I’ll end up doing something. But taking it easy is the plan of action for today, for sure. My body absolutely told me it was tired yesterday when I FELL ASLEEP in radiotherapy. What the hell. How can that be possible?! I’m in there for all of ten mins – lay on a plastic table with no mattress on it, with my head strapped down having my brain zapped. Yet I choose this moment for a NAP 😴😂 It mustn’t have been for long, but as the table I was on shifted me slightly and the noise of the machine began, I absolutely jumped out of my skin. By that I mean did a MASSIVE twitch 😂 because I can’t ’jump’ anywhere. There’s a period of time after they’ve done the scan, where the machine isn’t noisy and everything is quiet whilst I assume they’re discussing the scan and if it’s ok to start the radiotherapy. It must have been then when I took my opportunity for some Zeds! I hope they didn’t notice 😂

Enjoy your weekends everybody! 

Love Jen and Nev 🧠👁️⚡️